Step 3: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. (Worlds Big Book)
2 Samuel 14:14 (NLT) All of us must die eventually. Our lives are like water spilled out on the ground, which cannot be gathered up again. But God does not just sweep life away; instead, he devises ways to bring us back when we have been separated from him. (GODS BIG BOOK)
What if all of your trials and tribulations are plans devised by God your creator to bring you back to Him. He is a loving jealous God who is eagerly awaiting our return to Him.He is patient and long-suffering and he wants none of us to perish and what I mean by that is goto hell. He wants to know you in Life ! He sent His only Son Jesus Christ to die on a cross in our place so I would say God is pretty serious about having a relationship with us His creation. The Twelve steps lead you in His direction and we only discover God when we hit rock bottom and have to look up. God is very real and he so desperately wants to be a part of your life. He has blessings and good he wants to bring to it,but you have to reach up and out .He will never control or force His will upon you.Its a relationship with you His creation and he knows your pain and like a loving Father He wants to comfort you and make it all better.
Psalm 56 v 8 You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.